Thursday, October 7, 2010


Good Morning!
First off... I'm so excited! I have a follower!!!! Thanks Molly! :)

Secondly... DOWN ANOTHER POUND! which is miraculous since I am so sore.

Thirdly... let it be known that this is the first morning I almost threw up. Seriously, I am still siting here so nauseous that I can't muster the strenght to get in the shower and go to work!

I think as soon as I stop wanting to vomit - I will get excited about today's accomplishment.

Did I mention that the two hours of work happens in an 80 degree room??? sware. I guess since it feels like hell Tracy wants to simulate the heat of a firey after life.

Oh my heavens - this is grueling. There is no one to answer to but myself and trust me...

got up at 6:00 so I could get going by 6:30 or 7:00...and be done by 9:00. UGH....

The fat girl in me in wanting to kick the skinny girl in me's ass and go back to bed - but the skinny girl is scratching and clawing and fighting her way through! GO skinny girl!!!

HA... funny how different it is when you have to answer to your self... -not a trainer, not a friend - just look your self in the eye and tell your self " keep going. I'm proud of you. you got this"...
it makes me realize how often I say things that are contrary to those thoughts, how ofter I am really mean to myself and say horrible things to myself that I would not say to another living soul.

Why do we do that? hopefully I will do it less and less over the next thirty days. Hopefully, if you're reading this - you don't do it at all. That is my wish for you today - be kind to yourself.

I read a quote recently while in Cancun with some dear friends and it said simply...
"The best way to get what you want is to deserve what you want" (Charlie Munger)

I love that! I want to be healthy, fit and strong... and if God willing - to for once in my life like the way I look in a bathing suit... so I'm am going to try and deserve it.

Now, I think I may need to throw up.

xoxo by the book for thirty days....


  1. awwww, thanks!!!

    I'm so excited to have comments and followers!!! Makes it so much more fun!
    Thanks, B!